My New Blog

I finally stepped out and started my new blog ‘Watchman on the Wall.”A blog “all about prayer” I know that it should have already been started BUT I let Me get in the way.The enemy will do whatever it takes to keep you from doing what you are called to do for the kingdom.

I Cor. 16:9 is a scripture that the Lord gave me a few years ago…you would think I would be wise to his schemes by now. I know that I have been called to certain things and that there are always going to be opposition. This scripture says – A wide door for effectual service has opened to me (a great and promising one) and there are many adversaries. Adversaries that want to stop us from fulfilling our destiny.

So, this week the Lord has been speaking loud & clear. He is always speaking BUT are we listening? When you get desperate…you will listen! I have been in that place lately so I am listening. I have been hearing some tough but truthful things. Things like…I can’t stay in my box forever, I can’t stay behind closed doors forever, I can’t stay in my past forever!

Not exactly what I want to hear ! I want to stay in my comfort zone forever!

I have allowed my insecurities to cause me to have a false vision of myself and of who I really am “In Christ”.

I have allowed the enemy to build false boundaries around me to keep me from doing what I am called to do.

So, I am going to try really hard to step out of my box – out of my comfort zones, find that true vision of who I really am in Him and to find my correct boundaries.

Sometimes we just have to take baby steps, start with one thing that you are sure the Lord has called you to do and do it! Today, I stepped out and started my new blog!

Check out my new blog “Watchman on the Wall”


Trusting in God

There are times when we will be thrust into situations that are beyond our control. We, of course, want to see those difficult situations resolved but it is only when we release them do we find that resolution comes. It’s not always easy to trust God and wait for the answers but know that He does hear the cry of your heart and the answers will come. Don’t give in to worry…just rest in faith knowing that when you trust Him He will work it all out!

Thank you, Lord that Your presence is with us and that You give rest to our soul.

We will not fret or let our hearts be troubled or afraid.

We will be still and rest in You. We will wait expectantly for You.

We will praise You for you are our God! We will put our trust in You today!

John 14:27
Psalm 42;11

Moving Beyond the Lies

excerpts from – Beyond The Lie (Finding Freedom from the Past) by Alice Smith

page 118:

Accordingly, our self respect and self acceptance should be based on His awesome love, not our works. Our self worth (the value we place in ourselves) should be based on His having created us for His own purpose. God has programmed into each of us a kingdom potential, a life assignment that only we can accomplish.

You might protest, “But what about the weakness I feel? What about my flaws? What about how I look, what I can’t achieve, my education, or lack of it? Certainly some of these things are our responsibility – some we can and should change, and self improvement is always in order. Even so, there are things we can’t change, and those we simply acccept as we release them to God. Paul wrote, “Godliness with contentment is great gain” (I Timothy 6:6)

Being strong isn’t the ultimate goal – being His is! When we belong to the Lord and rely on Him in obedience, He will demonstrate His strength through our weaknesses. He chooses the foolish things to confound the world’s “wise” (I Corinthians 1:27) and in this way He receives the greater glory.

The question isn’t about your ability or inability but about your availability. It’s possible that as you’ve sought to understand and make better sense of the abuses and betrayals you’ve suffered, you’ve actually judged God too. If that’s the case, I’m praying that this truth will till the soil of your heart and cause you to repent for calling into question the integrity of your precious, perfect heavenly Father.

Perhaps, (like me) you have asked, “Why didn’t God stop the abuse and betrayal I experienced? Where was He when all of this was happening? How could He stand by and let this take place? Why didn’t He stop the perpetrator of my pain? Why did He allow this?

Though these are perfectly reasonable questions, we’ll never know the full reasons during this lifetime. God reserves certain things to himself. At the same tiume, there are a few things of which we can be certain; God was grieved when you were grieved. He suffered when you suffered. He was hurting when you were hurting.

God is self-restricted by the law of His own nature. He created us not as robots but as moral agents with the ability to make decisions – love is so priceless that it’s worth the freedom it affords.

God protected and sustained my life. That’s why I am still here. As with Job, He didn’t allow satan to destroy me. More important, that is why I can be more than a conqueror through Christ!

pg 119-120

Once my hurtful past was reconciled to God’s plan and I had it’s ‘stinger” removed, it became a positive part of my new life. The abuse I suffered is no longer a liability. My God has moved it from the debit column to the credit column. The pain of the old things died, and the old things became new (2 Cor. 5:17). Remember, the memories don’t cease to exist, they simply no longer provoke pain.

You will no longer have to run from, hide from, or deny your past – you can allow Christ to reconcile and redeem it. You reach emotional maturity as you discover and internalize God’s truth.

Begin to reprogram your mind with God’s truths today!

end of excerpts from “Beyond the Lie” by Alice Smith


I don’t want things to be the same as last year. I do want to see changes in my life. I want to move forward and not look back! I want to believe what God’s word says about me and not be concerned with what man thinks. I want to move beyond the lies of the enemy in 2009! We are more that conquerors through Christ Jesus!


My daily calendar reading for today January 10th –

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him to help you do it, and He will! Ps. 37:5 TLB

God Loves You!!

I wanted to share a response that I received from my last post. I thought that it was very significant to what God is saying to us for this year . I believe that it will show you that we are not alone, we all fight the same battles and that we have need of each other. We can’t do this alone. Read and be blessed today knowing that God loves you just as you are!


Thank you for your inspiration and insight for this new year. I do have to say that I have been thinking and feeling some of the same things in the passage below.

Thank God the past is in the past. I will no longer punish myself for poor decisions I made in my past. They have made me who I am today and I will see the good in them. I am so excited about this new year and some changes I am attempting to implement in my own life. The process: I am accepting myself, “as God has made me” and allowing Him to grow me up. I am fully ready to forgive, move on, change, go with the flow, not make issue about the small stuff, laugh, enjoy my life and BE HEALTHY!! I truly love my life, my family, my friends, my job……just because God gave them ALL to me to love, enjoy and embrace. I have decided to rid myself of anything toxic and do it with balance. SECRETS MAKE ME SICK!!! I will no longer compromise on this point. My goal is to be a whole person, spirit, soul and body. And with God guiding me this is very attainable. I will choose to see the good in every situation, give people the benefit of the doubt and just know that they are doing the very best that they can with this life that God has give them. I have learned to accept that our future is in God’s hands and it is only by His grace that we go on. I will do my very best not to judge or criticize. I will not be pushy, but instead have more patience and know that things come in their own time and when we are ready. I will have more grace for myself and know that I do not have to be perfect and neither do the people that I love.

Thank you for allowing me to share my personal feelings and convictions with you.


Let’s take this list and pray over ourselves and each other for the coming year…God desires to set us free! He has great things for you in 2009!!

1. Realize that the past is past.

2. Don’t punish yourself for poor decisions made in the past.

3. Accept yourself as God made you.

4. Forgive, move on, don’t sweat the small stuff – enjoy your life and be healthy!

5. Rid yourself of anything toxic.

6. Strive to be a whole person…spirit, soul and body.

7. Choose to see the good in every person knowing that they are doing the best they can.

8. Accept that your future is in God’s hands and that it is only by His grace that we can go on.

9. Don’t judge or criticize.

10. Don’t be pushy but instead have more patience.

and above all…

11. Have more grace for yourself knowing that you don’t have to be perfect and neither do the people you love!

Grace is God’s unmerited (undeserved) love and favor toward man. We may not deserve it but it is a free gift available to you…nothing we can do to earn it. Just accept it and believe that it belongs to you!

2 Cor. 12:9 – My grace is sufficient for you!!

Changing Our Thinking in 2009

I want to challenge you to change your thinking this year. What we think about life, our finances, our jobs, our ministries, our friends, our families but most of all what we think about ourselves.

Alice Smith of Eddie & Alice Smith Ministries says “We are never unemployed: we’ll always have the job of being our minds gatekeeper.”

The scriptures says in Ps. 94:19 that we have a multitude of anxious thoughts with in us. It also says in 2 Cor. 10:5 that we need to take every thought captive…to take control of our thinking.

I received a newsletter from Alice Smith this past week. In this newsletter she says that the words of our mouth (what we say to others) the meditations of our hearts (what we say to ourselves) and the words of others (what we listen to) will eventually establish what we believe, how we behave and who we will become.

We determine what we allow ourselves to see, hear & think. We must learn God’s Word if we intend to challenge and capture thoughts that are contrary to His will and bring them in line with Scripture.

Our attitude affects our relationships with God and others. It eventually affects our mental, emotional, and even our physical health. Dwelling on rejection, failure and unforgiveness will produce mental and physical illness and disease. Why? It’s because it contributes to the level of our stress. Some people stuff their stress, quietly bearing it. Others shout their stress outwardly venting it.

Proverbs 3:5-8 in the Message Bible – “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He is the one who will keep you oin track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health; your bones will be vibrate with life!”

* 10% of what makes us who we are is what we experience
* 90% of what makes us who we are is how we respond to that experience

If we add thoughts of rejection, worthlessness and unforgiveness to life’s common pressures like a “bad hair day”, a “blue monday”, parenting problems, job challenges or bumper to bumper traffic…we will strengthen negative strongholds within.

She asked that we start 2009 by answering these questions:

1. Do I constantly question God’s love for me?
2 Do I tend to question the motives, sincerity and intentions of others?
3. Do I do this unconsciously to the point that they feel rejection from me?
4. Do they sense this because of my subtle behaviors and body language?
5. Do I refuse to accept or try new challenges because I fear failure?

The rejection-cycle;
We are rejected by someone we love and from whom we expect to receive love. In turn, we reject those who really do love us and want the best for us. This results in cycles of attracting negative non-achievers to ourselves. When corrected we abandon our dreams for the future and all plans for ministry opportunites.

Our responses compromise our ability to experience and to express victory. What we don’t recognize, we can’t receive. What we can’t receive, we’ll never experience. What we’ve not experienced, we can’t express. Without renewing our minds (Romans 12:2) sadly the cycle will continue.

If you reject yourselves as a beloved child of God and refuse to respect the gift that He’s made you to be, you’re simply not sinning against yourself but you are actually judging God’s creation!

Psalms 139:13-14 (Message Bible) “Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I think you, High God, You’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration – what a creation!”

Few things determine other people’s opinion of us as will our opinion of ourselves! To move from negative to positive self-talk, we must shake free from the shame, guilt (real or false) and the reproach of our past. We must learn to appreciate who we are and why God made us. God loves us as we are. He loves us when we are right and when we are wrong. We can never escape His love. Re-evaluate your self-talk and recommit to believe God’s talk.”

Eddie & Alice Smith Ministries
Beyond the Lie book by Alice Smith – moving from victim to victor in Christ!
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Let’s determine to renew our mind with the Word of God this year and believe what He says about us!! A good place to start is with a One Year Bible that has 365 daily readings!

Hello Everyone!

Hello everyone! I hope your holidays were blessed! These past few months have been like a whirlwind…lots of battles – both spiritual & physical. But, there were lots of blessings in the middle of it all! I am so thankful for God’s goodness & His faithfulness to me!!

We have a new baby grandaughter (Rylee Rae) that is absolutely beautiful!

And…a new daughter-in-law – Shelly!

And, three (yes, I said three) new grandchildren – Landon, Allen & Stormy!!

So, you can see that it has been quite busy around the Smith house this past year!!

Even so, I’m so, so sorry that it has been so long since I posted. Please forgive me! I do know that this is something that I was supposed to do (among other things) in 2008. Now, it’s the beginning of a New Year. Yes, it’s 2009 already! I always look forward to the beginning of a New Year because it gives me a chance to re-group and start over. I think it is God’s way of saying, “It doesn’t matter that you messed up, that you didn’t quite do everything that you were supposed to do”. I’m wiping the slate clean and giving you another shot at it! So, here I go again, waiting to hear what He has in store for me this year! If you think of me…please pray for revelation, clear direction and courage to do all that He has called me to do! I know that God has good plans for me and for you!!

I love you all! Until next time!! Martha